Saturday, November 8, 2008 @9:49 PM
i know the
a's is still on but i don't feel like saying anything about it..
i'm really in no mood to do anything now..
it's really miserable to see someone how someone can feel so shattered when it comes to hearing and seeing unpleasant stuffs.. it's more or less the same to see how someone is being by so many obstacles and have to fight them alone to survive.. it's needless to say how i feel when that someone is you.. those are unpleasant memories that i wish and want to forget.. i tried hard but fate doesn't seem to give me a chance.. "is this karma? am i really that bad?" i always ask myself..
seriously speaking, i know who i am, and i don't need people like you to tell me that.. and when i hope to improve by changing, you are the culprits in stopping me.. should i thank you? i really love to change but to hear what was then considered to be your 'friends' say what they actually think of me as a person that i really do not wish to hear because i want that change, it's really pissing me off.. it really shows how people are like behind you.. but that was not the worse i had came to realise yet.. imagine you had a friend of many years and you had been deceived, how would you feel.. i admit i may be very talkative and i know lots of people but doesn't mean i can't keep secrets or i will keep spreading stuffs that shouldn't be said as and when i like it.. be it in class or in school, it's all happening..
i'm sick of this.. i mean being a friend of so many years, is this really how you think of me? am i really still the same? when people know about your matters, your first suspect is me that had spread? FUCK YOU and go eat some shit, you asshole.. so much for being friends.. and it's because of such people, my life gets so screwed up, a job well done indeed if that's your cause..
maybe you can say
i'm wrong,
i'm such a loser,
i'm hopeless but let me tell you..
i'm 18, old enough to do anything i want.. and times have changed and so do i.. knowing me years ago doesn't mean i will stay the same years after.. that's absolutely WRONG, damn it! it hurts so much, so so much, just to say things that i think i deserve not to hear..
have you also ever wondered why i look so cheerful
everytime? it's because
i'm an optimist..
i'll rather look of the bright side than looking on the dark side.. i can crack jokes,
i'm funny and lame but not every joke you say to me is a joke.. i can take certain issues very seriously and that's when you piss me off.. so the best is not to take things for granted and never try to toy with my limit because when
i'm crazy, i really don't know what i am going to do, given the fact that
i'm also very impulsive..
i don't care what you think and what you say, this is how i feel and you can stay away from this.. nobody asked you to anyway..
Labels: fuck off..
