a nap that became some serious extended sleeping.. reached home slightly after 6pm today and decided to take a nap but ended up waking not too long before now, which was around 1.30am.. quite shiok but then it means that i need to do my work now, during late nights! that's when i study best but i hate it when i go to school in the morning.. the feeling sucks because i start to feel so shagged and i will just sleep..

ok, prior to this, there was school which obviously sucked as usual.. went to the library to do my own practice instead before meeting martin for a supposedly planned study trip at downtown east.. took 12 all the way and wee yang was with us too.. however, just when we walked past hei sushi, we looked at the time.. it was 3pm and there it goes, we went for tea time buffet since we all went without lunch.. and well, spent all the time eating and none on studying.. but it's well worth though, we ate quite alot but could have been more if not for martin's cold jokes that made all of us so shagged.. left only at around 5.30pm and we went for walk around e!hub..


i'm pretty sure the staff was quite stunned when they presented us with the quantity we ordered as shown in the 'before' picture.. we really spammed.. it was more than what was shown here.. and the 'after' spot was really the exact same spot and we took quite some time to finish them, which was around a whopping 20+ plates at a go..

ok, so that was it for the buffet, so the 3 of us went walking around e!hub to digest our food because we were freaking full.. saw mr ng on the way and asked him what he was doing here and to my surprise he was actually here for a bowling game with mr low and mr ngoh!

mr ng was really good and so were mr ngoh and mr low.. mr ngoh was rather consistent and mr low just had so much strength.. and mr ng wasn't the bowling teacher-in-charge for nothing.. left shortly after that as martin's dad came to fetch us..

and finally, i guess it's time for some work to do now and school is going to start again soon.. zzz.. hope everything goes well!

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woke up at 10am today.. was supposed to follow my family out but then my mum was too tired so of course, i went to the arcade even though i didn't feel like it but i did promise the auntie i would come.. it will be quite bad of me since i'm a man of my words - a promise is a promise.. so as usual, it was the basketball shooting machine again.. played quite a number of times and only hit 1000+ once i think, a 1041, 4 higher than yesterday's best score.. the rest were around 970+ to 980+ though, so ya, went home after playing.. but i must say, there was this kid that used to trash me and then i trashed him who plays very well now, ranging a cool 750-770+.. at first, i was quite stunned and abit unhappy to see someone that could win me after some time.. but to think of it, so what if you're good at the shooting machine? you can't earn a living out of it so i didn't really quite care.. just a new hobby for me and i enjoy playing it and also playing it my way.. slacked abit and did 20 questions of vectors again for 2 hours until now, at which i decided to take a break till 7.30pm and that's when the F1 race starts! i really want to see hamilton win but if massa wins, i won't be that surprised too.. hope to update after the race is over!

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the highest today, a 1037! hoping to hit higher tomorrow!

headed back home at around 3+ and took a nap till 6 when my mother woke me up to have dinner at white sands.. dined at wan chai hongkong tea room.. the standard is really dropping man.. felt so conned but well, it's my mother who's paying so it's alright after all! haha.. currently waiting for time to pass so that i can watch the F1 qualifications later! that should be all for today!

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sometimes you might wonder a person's phone might be spoilt when he or she fails to pick up your call.. what do you think when such a call was not picked up for weeks? i sure do get what it means but i was stubborn enough to believe that the call could be answered.. i've decided, since that's the path that you all want to take.. we'll go separate ways without me ever interfering.. let's call it quits.. what a dumbass i was..

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a 763 and a 761! woots! been a long time since i single-handedly hit above 750.. i hit 734 on the first for the right and 763 on my 2nd try and finally broke the 734 and hit 761 on my 3rd try.. lolx.. looks like i can only post on such stuffs i guess because that's what i do! haha..

supposed to be meeting 09/07 people today but there's no update till now.. celebrating aloy's birthday in advance.. maybe there will be a dinner later on.. okay, just took a short pause to blog and i shall go for a sweet bath and carry on practising vectors (PART 2!)..

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ponned school yesterday but didn't turn out to be as productive afterall.. kept slacking and even went for a swim at shane's house.. had a great 2 hours swimming.. i must really say it's a good workout.. went to school today but didn't do much either, i also don't know why.. went opposite for lunch and left for tampines with shane and sam to get some stuffs for ourselves.. sam bought a new pair of goggles and i bought myself maths topical TYS.. went back home by mrt later.. met edmund first then quentin then xiong at the station.. what a small world.. had a short nap (if 2 hours is short), and started practising physics TYS for 2 hours and switched to maths till now as i wanted to pause for a short while..

the class is celebrating aloy's birthday in advance so i guess i'll be out the whole day again.. still undecided on whether to go to school or not tomorrow.. ends at 9.30 originally, but the miss wong added another from 10.50 to 11.40 so it ends then.. quite crappy still but i'll see.. been sick of the arcade too and that's a good sign because i spend less time and money on playing! but i'll still go train to take part in the competition after i pass out from ns! haha.. ok, shall go back to maths practise soon!

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50th post and counting.. yesterday was a long day out, which was also the same as today.. got to bishan junction 8 to watch money not enough 2 as sy had 4 free tickets.. went together with zq and yj too.. ok la, the show was sad and funny at times (jack neo's forte).. had some tasty chicken rice for dinner before taking 59 back home..

today marks the 2nd day of school and of course more papers were returned.. i don't feel like talking about them now because i need to stay positive and move on strong.. there's still time for those like me or to those who had not performed well to make it till the a's.. it's scary how time flies and even scarier to think of how we fared for a's.. was planning to study today but i received something unexpected - adeline had sent me an sms.. she was asking me whether i wanted to join the md ppl at minds cafe.. i was just mentioning this about on the previous post and this happened.. coincidence or it was all planned.. i thought it was rather random since it's been long since we last met.. i really didn't know what i felt that time, happy or stunned? it did turn out to be rather fun hanging out and playing games at the same time and i really enjoyed it.. want to thank the 7 of them (ade, st, sy, zz, ck, pearlyn and zp) for the enjoyable session.. dined at xing wang @ plaza singapura before heading home.. looks i got to pon school tomorrow to pay back for the time i spent today..

and it seems i have to take back my words a little.. i really felt uneasy prior to making my way to minds cafe.. i didn't know if i should really go or not, the invitation was rather sincere, that's why i decided to go.. not as awkward as i expected it to be though.. but... but.., this is only one time, who knows when the next time will be? even though i really hope there's one more of many more, i'm still prepared that this may be the last time too.. i'm really quite immune to that.. and i really got to apologise to pong and des for making empty plans today, not that i don't want to go out to mug with you all but i wanted to try to find back the stuff i thought or maybe i did lose a long time ago.. sorry pals.. sigh.. this is really a pain in the butt..

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had a feel to play pool or chill outside but could find no one to accompany me.. as usual, i went to the arcade then.. and surprisingly, the auntie was there again and of course we ended up shooting again.. first try and we hit 944, way better than the previous 909 we hit yesterday.. tried very hard to break 944 as we wanted 950 but it took quite some time.. kept hitting 900+ but did not hit any higher than 944.. our closest was 938 and another 935 and the lowest 888.. pek cek ah.. but coincidentally, i met guan wei, ying zhi and ying hao at the arcade.. they just got back from playing soccer at simei.. they were stunned to see me play though.. haha.. well, they came at the right time because for the last try, we managed to break 944 and hit 978.. woots! looks like 1000 is nearing.. way to go! left the arcade then and me, gw, yz and yh went to kopitiam to slack till they decided to go home.. went back home after that and it was total boredom when the arcade session is over.. was asked to go down to 7-11 to help for awhile before my family and i dined at LerkThai @ WhiteSands.. spammed like everything was free.. oh ya, met han chong on my way there and yes dude, we'll be having our meal probably this coming week, i'm pretty sure.. and as the usual me, with nothing to do, i headed to the arcade again when i am really left with nothing interesting to do.. hit a couple of 700+ and suddenly, eunice came popping out of nowhere.. i bet she was surprised to see my hit 727 because she i said i once lost to her, which i don't really remember quite well though.. it's alright though as i could easily win her now.. played another version of bishi bashi with madness.. i don't know how to describe it but we just played like mad people, lolx.. accompanied them to the bus interchange after that and headed back home.. heard quite some stuff from eunice while waiting for the bus to arrive..

to eunice: (if you happen to read this, which i doubt you will, here are my thoughts..)

you see, even if you invited me, i don't see a meaning actually.. it's like totally so awkward if i just suddenly pop out like that.. you always say there's kw but let me tell you, i don't know what's going on recently but we are gradually drifting away from one another, probably due to the lack of some sort of contact/communication.. i'm pretty sure it's not like we were the best of friends like we seem to be in the past.. and lastly, even if you really want to invite me, you would have done so long time ago on your own will but not just saying this when you're in front of me like you really meant it.. you get it? i was quite pissed to hear that actually but i just did not show it.. i'm sorry but that's who and how i am..

today was supposed to be my last slacking day which i really hope to forget all the remorse and regret but when nighttime came, i can't help myself but to be haunted by such unpleasant thoughts again..

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goal accomplished, hitting a 900..

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just got back home only to hear my neighbour quarrelling.. slammed the door quite hard as a hint.. ah well, prelims are finally over.. so what, even though we are free but this liberation is so short lived that it will be gone in another 48 hours, the time when we get back our papers and i'll be so so so dead.. physics was quite a killer and chemistry was quite tough for today even though i managed to complete both of them.. went over to cineleisure@orchard to watch MAMA MIA! i hope it's spelt correctly.. it was a musical and knowing myself, i don't watch such stuffs, they're really not my type but i still managed to last the entire show.. it started out quite dull and sot sot one but picked up slowly.. it was a mixture of laughter and surprise as the plot progressed.. not a bad show after all even though i don't watch musicals.. the vocals were awesome and pleasant to the ears and the lead actress was not that bad looking too.. ok, headed to wheelock's place and dined at border's bistro-cafe after walking rounds and rounds to search for a place that could accommodate 12 people.. had the set meal and cost me around $25.. quite worth it.. feeling quite shagged, i thought it was best to gone back straight home for a good rest.. after all, i've been awake from 1am this morning and had gone 22 hours without sleep till now..

and oh my, due to a breakdown of the refrigerator at one of my dad's 7-11, i managed to have a huge supply of ben 'n' jerry's ice cream popping out at my house's refrigerator instead.. it's really alot.. i shall let the picture do the talking..

i didn't quite bother to estimate the amount too..

i'm really feeling very tired now, maybe i really got to get some rest which i should soon.. i guess that's all for today..

Labels: need some rest..

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Papers Left:

• H1 Chemistry P1 and 2
• Econs P2
• Physics P1

and after prelims, it'll be 44 more days till a's.. time flies.. well, before i start, i shall wish pong happy belated 18th dude, makes me feel older only..

when time flies, i really mean it passes so fast even though i always try to slow things down but ultimately, time will always be ahead of me.. just slightly more than a year ago, i knew this group of friends.. i loved their company because we were all to on to do anything.. balling, movies, epl, whatever that's fun, we'll do it, together.. but i guess things and time are changing, it seems that this group is slowly drifting away.. and this is when time makes me really regret what i've done all along.. if i knew going to a different school would result into such a situation, i would have really joined you all.. don't mention about playing basketball for the college, this brotherhood is simply enough for me to give up playing basketball for my college.. maybe i was blinded by greed, by the desire to win another championship but look what i've got.. 2 years and not yet a finals appearance.. it's as good as joining you all playing ball down there.. not to say that my current bunch of teammates are not good enough but that brotherhood is really something i treasure very very much.. maybe more than getting into a relationship.. and now thinking of it, i might have really regretted stepping into this school? if i knew the administration was so fucked up, i really would not have taken a step in.. i would rather go to the same place as you all even though the administration might be as screwed up, but so what? there's still the company of you guys.. that is one thing i really can't get it back now and thinking of it really makes me feel damn dumb.. it's totally killing my motivation to mug too as time gets by.. well, knowing another great bunch of people here might serve as a consolation, it can never ever be as good as knowing the original band of brothers.. argh! screw it.. TJ really killed me.. i don't even feel any sense of belonging at all! fuck it..

RRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

screwed up school..

screwed up life..

if only there's a way to end this..

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prelims are halfway through! kindda screwed up my physics but luckily, econs was rather ok.. well, what's done had already been done, there's nothing more I could do to help the situation back then.. went to play ball in school after physics paper 2, with martin and swee liang joining me moments later.. shot some hoops till the moment that it just began to drizzle slightly.. mr. sim was there too and hell did he give us lots of laughter with his funny experiences.. kept waiting for the rain to stop but was fed up waiting so the 3 of us rushed quickly to hail a cab back to pasir ris because we had decided to go to SAKAE BUFFET! woots! been ages since I last had that, which was the first day of school this year, with si ying and yi jie if I'm not wrong.. but we were too early so we went to martin's house to slack till near 3 before going over.. spent a wonderful time eating with almost 60 plates of sides and sushi being consumed.. headed to the arcade after that because i felt like playing the shooting machine.. tried lots of time before we succeeded in filming the first video of me playing the shooting machine, which was tian ah, exhausting.. managed to hit more than 700 but it was a rather low 700 - 718.. ok, that was about all for yesterday..

had a great rest yesterday, felt so rejuvenated after waking up at 12.. had lunch before starting to mug at 2.. was trying a math paper 2.. felt it was okay after finishing it and I'm now taking a break.. doing papers really exhaust my mind but i shall persevere! ok, i should be going back to mug and maybe I'll blog again soon..

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ok, to start this post, today is si hui's birthday.. happy 17th birthday to her! and si hui, i know you definitely liked that gift very much.. haha..

and yep, prelims had started officially yesterday, with GP and Math there to murder me.. i guess they only did their job halfway.. balled after that long day to de-stress.. that's my only escape so far whenever feeling that down.. no other ways have proved useful yet.. today is an off day, with no papers on.. so shane and i went down to school to buy and practice some physics papers and also to pass si hui her gift.. had brunch opposite school and went home after that.. then came out and met yh at tampines coffee bean to mug for tomorrow.. spent a very fruitful session completing 2 paper 3s down there and headed home again to complete another one.. really hope tomorrow's papers won't be a demoraliser..

i guess there's nothing much more to add and i'll just pray hard tomorrow..

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was about to sleep but apparently i got woken up by my brother because my friends were talking to me on msn.. friends that i've not seen for ages.. had a nice chat about our lives now and pretty amazed how different our lifestyles can be.. on the other note, because i wasn't able to get back to sleep, i happened to chance upon one of jack neo's film - san ge hao ren on channel 8.. just finished watching.. the story was a typical jack neo version one - make you cry here and laugh there.. however, it always never fail to portray the identity of singaporeans.. the show was on ex-convicts and how they managed to overcome all odds in leading their new lives.. after watching such shows, it always serves as a motivation to me to work harder.. i've always said that i'll try, but who knows if i'll really do it.. even i'm not sure of it myself, but it doesn't matter now.. it's the last exam before NS, die die also cannot don't try! ah, the show also teaches some life lessons that might be really applicable to our society, if you've realised..

this reminds of a story that just happened a week ago.. let me tell the story first and then see what our society is really like now..

the story:

on a typical weekend at around 7 am, mrs. X was tending the convenience as usual, covering her shift.. everything was normal until a suspicious looking malay in his twenties came in.. mrs. X was suspecting he might be a potential thief and kept a close eye on him through the surveillance cameras installed.. true enough, the malay took some chocolate bars without paying.. being in the industry for so long, mrs. X had seen enough of such people and decided to give chase.. however, she got shoved by the malay and banged her head on the door.. luckily, there were some brave civilians nearby that heard the plea of mrs. X and brought down the thief with ease.. the police arrived shortly later and mrs. X was sent to the hospital in case of a concussion.. the thief turned out to be on the blacklist and the police had been wanting to arrest him but lack the evidence.. now that they've got it, they finally got their guy..

- the end -

some additional details not included in the story:

when that malay was brought down, he was not at all pleased.. he tried to struggle but failed terribly.. knowing that today he was really out of luck, he shouted, "chocolate only.." [it was 4 bars when i was told that it was supposed to be one - shows how skillful he is stealing things].. ya, so chocolate only, then why can't you pay and it might save your ass! damn it, can't you think of what to say before you actually say it? that's a dumb move.. you could have stolen more expensive items then, i tell you, it might be more worth it serving your jail term.. and rest assured, you're going to get at least a few years, poor dick-head..

ok, you've read about the part where i said the part on the plea of mrs. X? yep.. mrs. X did ask for help to call the police since she was quite taken aback by the shove.. one such person to be asked was a security officer of a shopping centre nearby.. mrs. X asked this dumbass to help her call the police.. oh ya, you might be wondering why i called him a dumbass.. listen, if you're the security officer in that situation, what would you do? quite obvious right? guess what he replied.. you would never expect this..

mrs. X: sir, can you help me call the police?
security officer: sorry ah, cannot ah.. 7-11 under MRT, not under [the shopping centre], i can't help you call police.. cannot..

-.- what a response.. i mean, ok fine, so if you can't call the police because it's not under your company, can you call it as a civilian? tian ah, it's so simple as abc that even i need to tell that officer that? what's so hard in seeing that point? it's hard to him because he never learn abc or what? i really cannot understand him.. and this might show on small side of what the present society in singapore can be.. ya, i understand the singapore spirit, one united people and red passion.. but seeing this, they're all bullshit, you can't understand it anymore.. i mean i really don't hate this society but seeing what some can do really irks you.. for example, i really feel like banging the officer's head.. i'll probably be doing him a big favour of getting a little smarter..

and to those who know me, you probably guessed where was the place, who were involved.. and yes you're right after all.. mrs. X is my mum, the store was the 7-11 at pasir ris and the MRT station was a pasir ris and the shopping centre was white sands.. and that's the reason why my tone is so coarse.. i think i am right to reveal all this since it's already so obvious.. who cares about it anyway.. just sharing a small story on what is actually happening int his world today..

oh well, prelims are starting in slightly more than 24 hours, oh great.. anyway, i think i shall get some rest because i'm meeting shane to mug at the airport..

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oh my god, i feel so screwed up.. the stress is killing me! 2 more days to prelims only! die le la!

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never thought this post was all about you.
today i was reminded of the times spent together.
i passed by the place where you first saw me as a kid;
i passed by the place that you were schooling as a youth;
i passed by the place you stayed;
i passed by the place we met again after so long;
i passed by the place that we once had fun;
and i was at the place where i longed to go with you one day.
all in one day, coincidentally.
too bad we weren't meant to be together.
hurts to see you go but what's done couldn't be undone.
how i wish i could turn back time,
and probably make you mine.
it's time to really let go.

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