• H1 Chemistry P1 and 2
• Econs P2
• Physics P1

and after prelims, it'll be 44 more days till a's.. time flies.. well, before i start, i shall wish pong happy belated 18th dude, makes me feel older only..

when time flies, i really mean it passes so fast even though i always try to slow things down but ultimately, time will always be ahead of me.. just slightly more than a year ago, i knew this group of friends.. i loved their company because we were all to on to do anything.. balling, movies, epl, whatever that's fun, we'll do it, together.. but i guess things and time are changing, it seems that this group is slowly drifting away.. and this is when time makes me really regret what i've done all along.. if i knew going to a different school would result into such a situation, i would have really joined you all.. don't mention about playing basketball for the college, this brotherhood is simply enough for me to give up playing basketball for my college.. maybe i was blinded by greed, by the desire to win another championship but look what i've got.. 2 years and not yet a finals appearance.. it's as good as joining you all playing ball down there.. not to say that my current bunch of teammates are not good enough but that brotherhood is really something i treasure very very much.. maybe more than getting into a relationship.. and now thinking of it, i might have really regretted stepping into this school? if i knew the administration was so fucked up, i really would not have taken a step in.. i would rather go to the same place as you all even though the administration might be as screwed up, but so what? there's still the company of you guys.. that is one thing i really can't get it back now and thinking of it really makes me feel damn dumb.. it's totally killing my motivation to mug too as time gets by.. well, knowing another great bunch of people here might serve as a consolation, it can never ever be as good as knowing the original band of brothers.. argh! screw it.. TJ really killed me.. i don't even feel any sense of belonging at all! fuck it..

RRRRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

screwed up school..

screwed up life..

if only there's a way to end this..

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