Sunday, September 21, 2008 @10:41 PM
had a feel to play pool or chill outside but could find no one to accompany me.. as usual, i went to the arcade then.. and surprisingly, the auntie was there again and of course we ended up shooting again.. first try and we hit 944, way better than the previous 909 we hit yesterday.. tried very hard to break 944 as we wanted 950 but it took quite some time.. kept hitting 900+ but did not hit any higher than 944.. our closest was 938 and another 935 and the lowest 888.. pek cek ah.. but coincidentally, i met guan wei, ying zhi and ying hao at the arcade.. they just got back from playing soccer at simei.. they were stunned to see me play though.. haha.. well, they came at the right time because for the last try, we managed to break 944 and hit 978.. woots! looks like 1000 is nearing.. way to go! left the arcade then and me, gw, yz and yh went to kopitiam to slack till they decided to go home.. went back home after that and it was total boredom when the arcade session is over.. was asked to go down to 7-11 to help for awhile before my family and i dined at LerkThai @ WhiteSands.. spammed like everything was free.. oh ya, met han chong on my way there and yes dude, we'll be having our meal probably this coming week, i'm pretty sure.. and as the usual me, with nothing to do, i headed to the arcade again when i am really left with nothing interesting to do.. hit a couple of 700+ and suddenly, eunice came popping out of nowhere.. i bet she was surprised to see my hit 727 because she i said i once lost to her, which i don't really remember quite well though.. it's alright though as i could easily win her now.. played another version of bishi bashi with madness.. i don't know how to describe it but we just played like mad people, lolx.. accompanied them to the bus interchange after that and headed back home.. heard quite some stuff from eunice while waiting for the bus to arrive..
to eunice: (if you happen to read this, which i doubt you will, here are my thoughts..)
you see, even if you invited me, i don't see a meaning actually.. it's like totally so awkward if i just suddenly pop out like that.. you always say there's kw but let me tell you, i don't know what's going on recently but we are gradually drifting away from one another, probably due to the lack of some sort of contact/communication.. i'm pretty sure it's not like we were the best of friends like we seem to be in the past.. and lastly, even if you really want to invite me, you would have done so long time ago on your own will but not just saying this when you're in front of me like you really meant it.. you get it? i was quite pissed to hear that actually but i just did not show it.. i'm sorry but that's who and how i am..
today was supposed to be my last slacking day which i really hope to forget all the remorse and regret but when nighttime came, i can't help myself but to be haunted by such unpleasant thoughts again..
one sees you, says hi, ignores you on msn..
one ignores all your calls and smses and never comes online..
one still speaks to me even after so long but he's been closer to the first two, i wonder if he's for real that he's still that nice to me..
what can i do? nothing, absolutely nothing.. i don't think time can help, it just worsens the situation, that's all.. it would be great if i could turn back time, but sadly, i could not.. i guess i really had enough of this..
Labels: if only i made the right choice..
